As I sit and write this, I am feeling exhausted from my week. This exhaustion stems from the remnants of life living in my limbs. My shoulders ache slightly from my workout yesterday, my eyes are puffy from sleeping so well last night. My tummy rumbles gently as she is used to three meals a day again.
My day is beautiful and open, it can go anywhere I carry it, and there’s so many options that I feel overwhelmed. Yesterday I had a picnic with my friends, and, man, they are so funny. I love stumbling on people the way I have.
I have made so many new connections (outdoors and covid secure) from my hobbies, like photography, embroidery, and the newest one I have started (A post is in the works!), and I think that’s the best way to make friends. You have a common interest with someone, and you see that there are so many similarities to yourself and the other that it almost shocks you. (Only took me 21 years to work all this out! Ahahah)
One of my goals for March was to make new friends. I wrote a manifestation: “I am afraid to acknowledge that I am ready for friends, but I am. I am ready for new ones, of any kind. Anyone you can send me, I have so much love for already.”
I was so afraid of getting hurt that I almost shut down the opportunities when they arose, but now I have a say yes attitude, rather than say no. Now that restrictions have eased, I find myself next to new lakes I haven’t been to before, in skate parks laughing, watching sunsets, and making jewellery in the sun.
It only just struck me that I haven’t felt like I don’t fit in.
The changing point of March, was March 8th. When I wrote this in my journal, I had no idea that I would actually be able to leave the situation I was in. All I knew was that I needed to surrender, not to the inevitability of life, but to myself. I needed to see myself as someone who I wanted.
Dear 8th of March
I choose life for myself. I choose love for myself. I choose peace for myself. I choose joy for myself. I choose survival for myself. I choose not to turn on myself. I choose Evee every day of my life.
It has been a steady rise since then.
My heart beats steady with love, life and fun. I thought there would be a gentle sigh of regret in my days, but that is yet to come. I feel as though I am going from strength to strength, so how could it ever come? How can you regret, when you did everything you could, and it stemmed from a loving place?
Well, you can’t.
Thank you, dearest March, for my favourite lesson yet. Life truly does exist in a balance, and the negatives you feel will be balanced out by as many positives. As I have said so many times on this blog, ruin is the road to transformation. I am so grateful to be transformed and different to the girl who entered March feeling lost, afraid, hopeless and alone.
Girl, you had no idea, and I’m glad you didn’t. This is better than anything you would have expected.
“You’re wishin’ too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert
A Song For You: The Fear by Ben Howard. You will become what you deserve, my friend.
34 thoughts on “Dear March”
inspiring blog.. keep going
I’m so glad that you think so x
Love the article!!
I’m glad 🙂
Only from the experience of my 68 years, my wish for you is that you learn to live without fear of a new day, but rather an approach with cautious optimism.
Thank you for sharing your lessons with me. I’ll take all the experience I can get! I think cautious optimism is a great way to describe what I want to be. Before I was far too optimistic and too trusting! Now I guess, you get burned and all that!
Have a beautiful day my dear friend 🙂
Living present is awesome…. Nice article….
So true x
I appreciate the manifestation you wrote. It inspires me to look at my own affirmations and reframe/re-word them. Thank you 🙂
More than welcome Liz 🙂 x
Life, love, peace, joy, survival! Yes, please! ❤️
keep on keeping on. it’s a big/small world out there x
I so agree my friend 🤍
Thank you so much Ariela 🙂
A surrender to love! Thank you, it inspired me to reflect. <3
I’m so glad to hear that x
Highly relatable. Cheers
It’s my pleasure!
I read this and listened to the song you wrote at the end. What a powerful reflection on the person your grief has made way for. It’s so hard to grasp that we may be different from the people we were before, but that the new person is valid, too…so your post left me with a lot. I, too, am trying to find new friends- as an extrovert in quarantine and grief, I can tell you it ain’t easy. But your post gives me hope that I too can find some 🙂
I’m so glad that this post resonated with you xx sending you lots of positive vibes and hope you form new friendships soon <3
Thank you so much, my friend
You’re welcome. Take care. ❤️🙏🏻
Everyday brings new challenges and new hope. Just got to keep moving in the right direction. This is wonderful. ❤️
Thank you so very much Gary xx
What a nice declaration for ourselves in life!
Thank you for sharing!!… believe Steve Jobs said it best; “Your time is limited, don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is living the result of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinion drown your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary” (Steve Jobs)… 🙂
Have a Happy Easter Sunday and until we meet again..
May the sun shine all day long
Everything go right, nothing go wrong
May those you love bring love back to you
And may all the wishes you wish come true
Absolutely 🙂 xx Happy easter!
A really nice blog – I would not of read had you not liked my blog – Thank You – you have made my morning pleasant!
I’m so glad to hear that Tom 🤍 have a beautiful day!!