First posted in January 2020. We have grown so much more than we ever thought we would, and we want to share our earlier posts. We aim to reflect on the early struggles of our grief, and what we went through without our mum. We are proud of where we have come from, and of where we are going. We hope you are as well.
If you are struggling with your grief, that is okay. You are not alone.
2019 has been one of the most formative years of my life. 2019 has taught me that in this life you sink, or you swim. For a long while, I was sure I was sinking.
One of the turning points of this year was the day we left Devon. It was a Wednesday, late afternoon. Evee, Daisy and I were driving down the motor way in a car full to the brim with our belongings and the sunset was burning orange in the rear view mirror.
Defying Gravity from Wicked came on. That song has always moved me. You’ve read enough of my blog posts at this point to know that of course, I was a ball of emotion laughing through tears as I realised we are really doing this.
One of mine and Evee’s Christmas presents this year was to see Wicked at the theatre. The show was incredible from start to finish, and those same emotions bubbled to the surface as we watched the live performance of that defining song.
I hope I never take this feeling for granted. I’m so, very thankful for the opportunities we have been given and for the positions we now find ourselves in. This year I learnt that you always have a choice I am so thankful that while it would have been easier to stay in Devon and sink due to our circumstances we made the choice not to.
I am so thankful to each and every person who shaped my 2019, and wish you all a peaceful 2020.
Happy New Year, Happy New Decade, Happy New Everything.