First posted in August 2019. We have grown so much more than we ever thought we would, and we want to share our earlier posts. We aim to reflect on the early struggles of our grief, and what we went through without our mum. We are proud of where we have come from, and of where we are going. We hope you are as well.
If you are struggling with your grief, that is okay. You are not alone.
One Friday night last March I was overwrought with grief and exhausted from, what felt like, constantly swimming against the stream. I crawled into bed defeated from the working week and simply cried. I wanted to shut the whole world out and grieve.
All the while my phone was on the side buzzing constantly. It was Evee bombarding my WhatsApp with excited messages about all the comments we were receiving on one of our blog posts.
Up until that point we hadn’t received much traction. Our blog was simply an online abyss where we would scream “I’M REALLY SAD TODAY AND LIFE HURTS” and then we’d shut the laptop and carry on swimming against the current.
When we were plunged into such dark and uncertain waters in a life without our mum, we created this blog. We created this blog to become the people that Katie and Evee needed in the darkest moments.
What we didn’t realise though was that, through this blog, we were entering into a community where we would receive comments daily telling us of similar situations: from other daughters, sons, husbands, wives, mums and dads, all grieving like us.
We never expected to feel so supported by your comments of encouragement or simple “me too” messages or a “hang on in there, it does get better”. Knowing other people were able to survive such loss gave me hope and shined a light on a future that I thought I’d never be able to attain after losing our mum.
Today, Evee and I are reflecting on the progress of our blog from a little café on Dartmoor over a cream tea (how very quaint). This blog has given us a weekly slot where we force ourselves to look beneath the surface of “I’m fine thanks” and truly reflect on how Katie and Evee are feeling.
It has also given me the opportunity to write something for the first time that isn’t going to get graded. In my first post I think I mentioned that I wasn’t much of a writer, but through this blog I have come to know that I actually quite like it!
The Grief Reality has been a place for the pair of us to put our grief into very honest words. Without realising it, in our time of need, we reached out our hands and all of our readers reached right back. And, for that we are so grateful.