First of all, I like to think that Katie and I would scrape together our student funds and take you to a spa or an Air BnB.
Eventually the things I could control I over-controlled and micro-managed every step of the way.
Three years ago today, my sister and I were enveloped in a tireless struggle of life and death.
I enjoyed being outside of my comfort zone. I enjoyed not knowing the language, and the noise of the family around me.
I was free.
I had never felt more lost, and I had never felt more ‘found’ before.
Tips on Journalling When You’re… Sad, Frustrated, Happy, Heartbroken, Grieving, Insecure, Anxious or Lost
She was my hero, and my best friend. She would always look after me, help me and guide me, and it strikes me that twelve, thirteen years later, I don’t have that.
When I think of a reset, I think of turning the wifi box off, furiously counting under my breath, and then switching it back on, hoping that the wifi will work this time around.
Like those stretchmarks, wrinkles, lines, the added height she has not seen, I am confronted with an intense grief.
If you get night terrors; you are not a freak. You are not a freak for feeling anxious, or because you have experienced trauma, or any other reason.
I hope you are enjoying this hot weather, and I hope you are feeling fulfilled. If you had told me life would be like this for me…… Read more “Happy”