It’s been a slow transition but I wish I could tell my counsellor that I finally stepped down from that tightrope where I couldn’t put a foot wrong. I wish I could tell her that actually “Katie does make mistakes” but I can handle them – it’s okay.
Tag: 2018
Reality Revisited: Control Freak
Eventually the things I could control I over-controlled and micro-managed every step of the way.
Reality Revisited: Learning to Move Forward
The whole experience felt really cathartic by letting go and accepting the pain of 2018, without letting go of our Mum.
Reality Revisited: As Told By Evee
What they didn’t know was that I was slowly losing it. My grades were the only thing I could even begin to control. I believed the only thing I could truly count on was that in March 2019 I would be at university. The hardest thing I had to do was leave my mum curled up on the sofa to revise for my exams. Repeatedly I beat myself up for being so selfish, but I promised myself that I would have all of summer to be with my Mum.
Reality Revisited: As Told By Katie
I read a quote once: “My mum taught me everything except how to live without her”.
Dear Mills
Friends are like stars: you don’t always realise they are there, but they are always shining.
Before The Worst
A new happy that remembers the grief that robbed my family back in 2018 but shows up anyway. A happy that gives a little sad sigh at the end of each day and says “I wish I could facetime my mum”.