It was a downward spiral of pain, and the very essence of mum singed and burnt my soul with that deep sense of loss.
Tag: Carer
Reality Revisited: “Jump And The Universe Will Catch You.”
I don’t feel fear like I used to. I’ve learnt that the only thing that you can actually count on in this life is, in fact, change. I don’t try and run away from it anymore; running away takes up too much energy anyway. It’s easier to face it straight on, embrace it, and jump.
Reality Revisited: Brand New
Why do we have this self-imposed idea that throughout our lives we are meant to maintain a perfect, crisp version of ourselves? Like untouched snow, or fresh school shoes that we don’t want to scratch.
Reality Revisited: Still.
How could I still be listening out, just in case Mum needed me?
Reality Revisited: Am I A Carer?
It didn’t make sense at first. How could I have been a carer for such a long period without having realised? I think this is the case for many people. Like I said, the changes were minimal at first, and you really don’t mind because you’d do anything for your family.
Reality Revisited: What is Journaling and How Do I Do it?
I remember a page where I just scribbled “WHY”. One word which took up the whole page. I scratched it in so much the letters were thick and black but each time I drove my pen into the paper I felt a release.
Reality Revisited: As Told By Katie
I read a quote once: “My mum taught me everything except how to live without her”.
How We Keep You Alive
Katie and I will stand side by side and talk about the creation of The Grief Reality. We will talk about how alienating grief was, but the love we felt from this community. We are indebted to the Wordpress community for the life it brought back to us.
Me Without You
So, 15 months ago I was stripped of everything that I thought made me, me. And what came after a deep long look and sorting through those jagged pieces, was less noise. A silence. A phase of purification. Nearly every aspect of my life, to an extent, has been stripped.
So, who is Katie now?
Life After Death?
Yes, and I am finally living it.