I cannot wait to be Evee in my new life, and for Katie to be Katie in hers. I am ready for it now.
We are truly exhausted physically, but mentally, we are stronger and happier than ever.
I don’t feel fear like I used to. I’ve learnt that the only thing that you can actually count on in this life is, in fact, change. I don’t try and run away from it anymore; running away takes up too much energy anyway. It’s easier to face it straight on, embrace it, and jump.
I can’t help but wonder: does my memory serve me? Or, have you have been gone so long that I can barely find the memory?
More than anything though, we hope you are keeping safe and that you are in good health. Be kind to yourself during this period and always.
Be mindful of those little moments that weave colour into your everyday. Scribble little notes, underline everything. Bookmark it all. In no time at all you’ll have a whole collection of moments that add so much colour and life to your life.
You aren’t your grief. You aren’t what happens to you in this life, you are how you deal it. You won’t always feel so small.
For 2019, I had a different type of bonfire night. It was lovely, wholesome and warm.
Mum would love these rainbows.