But this is my world. Those were the cards I had been dealt. I have been living without my Mum for 14 months now. I have been doing okay.
Tag: university
University Life: After Death (Part 2)
I think part of my university experience has been trying to find that for myself. To have a moment of deep pride in my accomplishments.
University Life: After Death (Part 1)
I hated vulnerability so much, that I tried to give myself everything I could to the point of burnout.
Loss and the Future
What is Secondary Loss?
Reality Revisited: And… Jump.
I cannot wait to be Evee in my new life, and for Katie to be Katie in hers. I am ready for it now.
Reality Revisited: 2 Weeks Left At Home!
We are truly exhausted physically, but mentally, we are stronger and happier than ever.
Reality Revisited: One Day at a Time
Remember how Mum would always say to break things down, and to not look at the bigger picture. The bigger picture is scary, and so is a year. 365 days seems inconceivable right now, but you can manage one day at a time. Stay in bed if you have to. You don’t have to leave the house, you just have to get through another day.
Reality Revisited: “Jump And The Universe Will Catch You.”
I don’t feel fear like I used to. I’ve learnt that the only thing that you can actually count on in this life is, in fact, change. I don’t try and run away from it anymore; running away takes up too much energy anyway. It’s easier to face it straight on, embrace it, and jump.
Reality Revisited: Fool’s Gold (by Evee)
I’m a hoarder of moments, desperate to find gold in paper,
Something that I had missed before, like an echoing smile.
I walk in my loving, sweet Danse Macabre,
My fruitless attempt to make “treasure” worthwhile.
Reality Revisited: We did it, Mum
You were always there to tell me how proud you were and to tell me to never give up. I didn’t. I didn’t give up because you never gave up. You taught me to never give up, and we didn’t, did we?